I no longer have two under two

I haven't posted in a long time. Mostly because I didn't think anyone really would want to read about my boring life. But, I have been writing a journal to my kids. I am thinking about transferring it over to this blog and then printing it out yearly. This way I can add pictures as I please, and it will be all nice and neat. I will be writing most of my post directly to my kiddos, but feel free to comment when you want.

Also my babies are growing up! Natalie just had her 3rd birthday! Woo Hooo! It was so much fun. We had her party at Jump Zone and she had a blast!

We also went through the first anniversary of Natalie's heart surgery. I wasn't exactly sure how I would feel, but was kind of shocked to find out I was a little sad. I looked though pictures and cried and remembered very clearly how scared we were. I also remembered how hard it was to let her go back for surgery, and how she looked afterwards. This year because it is still so fresh the anniversary brought back a lot of anxiety. But I am so happy that it is over and that Natalie will be able to live her life healthy and happy now. This anniversary should symbolize the joy of having her fixed healthy heart! She has gained a whopping 12lbs since surgery!

sorry

I know my posts are becoming few and far between, and I am sorry about that. I have come to the conclusion that I have absolutly nothing to blog about, in a good way. My kids are happy and healthy. Natalie is healed up and growing like crazy (she totally skipped a size in shoes), Landon is right on track. My job is easy, long, but easy. My marriage is great! My whole family is close and supportive when I need it. I am about to go on a vacation for the first time in 4 years! I don't have much but am happy with what I have, probably much like anybody else! Thanks to you all who do follow my blog!

its been a while

Sorry it has been so long since I have posted. This is going to be a very real post...
I am tired and stressed and in desperate need for my vacation. Ever since Landon was born Trenton and I have been working total opposite schedules. It was ok at first, but after 6 months we both are feeling like single parents. I am either by my self all day with the kids or Trenton is. We don't have days together as a family, and it is starting to really make me sad. At the moment we can't afford daycare for 2 kids, it is very expensive for a good daycare. We are looking for someplace that would take the kids for 2 days a week so that maybe on the weekends we could have two days as a complete family. One issue is with Natalie, she freaks when I leave especially if I leave her with someone she isn't comfortable with. I know what you all are thinking, she will get over it after a few times going, but I don't know. We haven't even been able to leave her in daycare at church, one time she escaped, and all the other times the teacher brings her back to me because she is still screaming bloody murder after 20 minutes. I do believe she would really enjoy playing with other kids. But I also am thinking who in there right mind is going to put up with her screaming until she adjusts. Landon on the other hand would be sooo easy! The next issue is our bedtime routine... We don't have one. When I work I don't get home until 8pm. From the second I get home I am running around trying to get the kids ready for bed. When I am off we aren't racing the clock, so it goes much smoother. So Natalie (again) sleeps in her own bed great at nap time, but at bedtime she screams and cries unless I sit with her until she goes to sleep. I would just let her cry her self to sleep, we did this before Landon and it worked great, she stopped crying after 3 days. But Landon is also in bed at this time and she wakes him up. So now I sit with her for 5 minutes and she goes to sleep, no big deal... except she wakes up screaming at 12am. One of us jumps up and runs in to try and keep her quiet so she doesn't wake Landon. If we get her back to sleep in her bed, she wakes up again 30 min later. So after playing this game she usually ends up in our bed. Then if she hasn't woke Landon up by this time he wakes up at 2am. He used to sleep through the night, but not anymore! So, we are all exhausted in the morning. Just so you know, I realize this is a result of 2 years of spoiling, and we made her this way, but now I really don't what to do. I am just tired. I don't even want to leave the house because I know I have to go by myself. My poor mom is probably sick of us because every time she is off I bring the kids over, just so I can have a little help. I know this was super long and whiny, but I love my kids and I want to do whats best for them, even if I don't always know what that is.

New pictures

I figured with all the updates on Natalie, Landon deserves a little screen time. He has allergies really bad right now, it appears to be the worst with pet dander. He is on an antihistamine at night so he can breath, we try not to give it to him during the day because it isn't really made for babies his age. He is getting so big! At 6 months he weighs 15lbs. I can't believe he is 6 months already. Time seriously flies with two kids. Here is a picture from his 6 month birthday.

Follow up appt

Today we had natalie's surgery follow up appt, it went really well, but for some reason they switch doctors on us. I wanted her to see the one who has seen her since birth, but when we got there they said we were seeing a different one. Our regular doctor is pregnant so I thought she must have had her baby, but nope she was there seeing patients. I dont get why they would switch her, but the doctor she did see was very nice. So, Natalie is doing great and heal perfectly. My only complaint is that now she has horrible nightmares and is sleeping in our bed again. Bad thing, she sleeps sideways in our bed for some reason, so our king size bed feels like we are sleeping in a twin she takes up so much room. She also cries and screams and asks for drinks all night long. I feel so bad for her, but at the same time I can't wait to get her back in her own bed. This doctor said to give her a few more weeks.

We are home at last

We made it home late last night! Natalie is doing great. She is very hyper and we are actually having to make her rest. I am so scared she is going to trip and hurt her self, but the doctor said to let her play! She is on two medications, but neither are for pain. She can take Tylenol if she complains of pain, but she hasn't needed to. So I want to thank all of you for all your prayers and praise God for her fast recovery! We came straight to my sister's house and picked up Landon who now feels like he has gained 10lbs (thanks a lot Jenifer). We missed him sooooo much. He has a little cold or something that I am a little worried might be contagious, but my mom said it sounds like sinus drainage. We are going to try and get him to the doctor today. I will post a new picture of Natalie and her healing belly soon!

Surgery went great!

Sorry I havent updated in a long time. We just got our own room at ACH. Natalie's surgery went great. The first 48 hours were a nightmare, but after that she started waking up longer and amiling a little. My mom and I tok turns holding her because thats all she wanted when she was a wake. The nurses here are all amazing! Natalie cries ever time one comes in her room though. Today is day 3 after surgery and she is on no meds except meds to flush her kidneys of all the meds she was on. And she has spent most of the day destroying the play room! They completely fixed her heart so no more surgery for this baby! Oh and she is now part cow, her hole was patched with cow heart lol. moooo. Here is a link to her surgery album.
http://s140.photobucket.com/albums/r10/amyandtrenton/Open%20heart%20surgery/
Sorry this post is all over the place, I havent got much sleep.